Today is my birthday.
For many years, I was taking finals or staying up all night to study for finals on my birthday. One of the great things about getting older is that I don’t have that to worry about anymore. But beginning my 31st year of life seems strange today. I woke up to a beautiful scene and took some time to walk around, thank God for who He is and what He’s done for me, and take some pictures of the snow and fog.
It’s a strange, yet beautiful site for May, even for Colorado (at least the part of CO where I live!)
Yesterday I had a cool experience of God meeting me personally in some ways that I really needed. Dan and I are starting some new adventures…the biggest one being that we are beginning our adoption journey! We’ve known for years that we would one day begin our family through adoption. And we’ve finally taken the first step…requiring a lot of trust and faith. It’s been really challenging to me and I’ve battled some fear and doubt in these last few weeks. I’m told that’s pretty normal, but it’s challenged me to really cling to what I believe God has led me to.
Dan read this to me the other day;
“While fearful questions may stop us in our tracks, it is only words of LOVE and HOPE that can draw us to new possibilities. More frequently, fearful questions only produce fearful answers. And as such, they will dismiss as impossibilities the answers of love and hope. Thus finally, those fearful questions, while they may initially need to be listened to, will have to be abandoned.”
I’ve tried to listen to my own fears with compassion, and then give them over to the One who is Love. “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear” (1 john 4:18). As I’m stepping into the unknown, I am doing my best to listen only to the voice of LOVE. God is love. We heard a confirming sermon yesterday at our church on Being the Beloved. It was a beautiful reminder that God calls us His Beloved, and through that we can live out our purposes in this world with confidence and trust. His sermon was titled “Oaks of Righteousness”, which comes from one of my favorite verses;
“…to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor”
Thank you for being on this journey with us!